Monday, September 13, 2010

The Fog is Lifting!

Pin It Maybe it will, or maybe it won't, come as a surprise to you to learn that the last few months have not been stellar in the life of Melanie. They just haven't. There have been days when it was a struggle to get out of bed and days when I'm sure my family sat in another room and whispered to themselves that "mama is starting to lose. it."

This blog is kind of strange. On one hand, I think sometimes I put way too much information out there. I mean, my heavens, I have told you people that I sat in the Target parking lot and wondered if I had brushed my teeth that day. Y'all hung with me last year when my life's goal was to keep my plates spinning and I blogged all about everything. Then there have been the last few months, when it was easier to blog pictures and superficial items and not let it get too personal. I don't want to be needy or pathetic, or whatever you want to cal it. I want to be a person who has it all together, and if I don't, I certainly want you to think I do.

All that said, this last summer, I have not had it all together, and I haven't wanted to blog about it. I haven't wanted to blog about anything on a personal level.

Now, though, suddenly the fog that I've been in has lifted. I'm not *there* yet, but the difference between how I feel physically and emotionally now from two months ago is amazing. I can't even tell what has exactly made the change - whether it's that I'm taking a little better care of myself, or doing some things specifically for me now (other than the daily Starbucks run ... KIDDING JIM! I really only go a couple of times a week!), or answered prayer, or getting back into a routine with structure, or what.

I just know that it's really nice to wake up and not try to figure out a way to hide under the bed. It's nice to look at things that need to be done and not feel so overwhelmed. I couldn't believe yesterday - I had a STACK of things to do. We went to church, came home, and I got my things done. A couple of months ago, I would have looked at the list and tried to crawl under the bed.

All of that to say ... the fog is lifting, and I am so thankful!

6 comments:

Becca said...

I am so glad for you Melanie. I have been in that fog and it is a dark place to be. I will pray that it continues to lift.

Micah said...

So glad things are looking up! I hate fogs. frogs too for that matter. random, I know.

melanie said...

eh, frogs are okay as long as they're quiet. Start making noise though and I'm not a fan. ;)

Jessica said...

So glad that the fog is lifting! I, too, have been in that hazy foggy place where at times you wonder if you really are losing it. I know ALL about that place. There are times when I tries to creep back and you just have to tell it NO!
Maybe Breaking Free is going to be great for the both of us! lol
So good to spend some time with you today! looking forward to getting to do that all school year!

Becky said...

Yay for less foggy! Hoping the sun continues to burn off all of it until it's clear skies as far as the eye can see. Love you, lady.
And, Jessica, thanks for the timely reminder to just tell the creeping thing NO!!!!

Becky said...

Yay for less foggy! Hoping the sun continues to burn off all of it until it's clear skies as far as the eye can see. Love you, lady.
And, Jessica, thanks for the timely reminder to just tell the creeping thing NO!!!!